Right now, I’m stuck. Last week I didn’t write a blog post partly because I’ve been working extra long hours this week, but partly because I didn’t know what to write about.
There are so many excuses I could use that have varying degrees of truth to them.
“I’ve been busy these last couple weeks”
“I always lose momentum right after Camp NaNo”
“I’m at hard part in the novel”
But the truth of the matter is, I’m just stuck.
I don’t know how to get from one scene of my novel to the next. To make matters worse, to get to the next point in my story I have to introduce a new character. A character I know nothing about. And for the past two weeks I’ve been looking for inspiration in the people around me for this character, but I still haven’t found anything.
And I’m frustrated. I want to keep writing, but this character is too central to the story to just jump over and come back to.
What’s even more frustrating about this situation is the fact that I want to write. I am in love with my story and I love the way the story is going. I’m excited that it is summer and my time to write is no longer at odds with other things like writing papers or studying for exams.
But I get this panicky anxiety that my time to write is passing me by without me and then I spend more time worrying about not writing than actually putting in the effort to write. It’s a vicious cycle.
All that being said, the conclusion I’ve reached is more of a reminder to me rather than a new lesson.
Getting stuck happens.
But getting stuck only refers to the momentum of my writing. I’m not going forward when I’m stuck. But that doesn’t mean I’ve left the writing trail or that my story isn’t going to work. It just means that until I come up with a solution I’m going to stay in the same spot. And like a car spinning its tires in mud, not every solution will work as well, and that’s okay. The important thing is continuing to try to push past that blockage or lack of motivation and find a way back onto that road and forward movement.
At this point, I don’t know how to get unstuck. I don’t have any tips on how to get unstuck. I’m still stuck and I may be stuck for a while. But I’m not worried anymore. I’m focusing on letting go of that anxiousness of time passing and letting myself live in the moment of being stuck as a learning experience and as a time to reflect on when my writing is going well.
So I’m stuck today, but I won’t be stuck forever and when I get unstuck, I’ll let you know how I did it.